Happy New Year^^

"Happy" New year!!Is it really happy for everyone???I don't think so...Today just going Pavilion watch movie,we watch ‘刺陵’...erm....not so bad....but not so good...haha,normal la!! After that they go snooker =.= 1st time go..hmm....i feel that place not so suitable for me,cause i feel boring,maybe because of I din't join they play...After that 2 and half hour,we go 'yam cha' until 8pm like that...A nice day,rite?? hehe...can saw back so many PP member,they really change alot liao...Wish a New year,they got new Hope,and wish them always hapi too^^


陷入低落的心情... ...
吃着冰淇淋，听着林俊杰的‘期待爱’。。。期望能够让心情好过些。。。刚完成明天要开会的财政报告，开心^^可是原来就开心那么的一秒，接下去又是失落的声音。。。到底我在失落什么？？根本找不理由我在做什么，更找不到借口让我安心。。。

嗯。。。今天我向他说清楚了！本来想约他明天早上谈谈的，岂知道他竟然先找我了。。。就想好啦！不要再拖下去了！再拖下去就不知道要再伤害多多少个无辜的人了。。。不想看到这‘血流成河’的情景。。我想是这驱使我那么有勇气吧！说完后，他说他明白了！不会再强逼我。。。看到这里时，不知道是旧病复发还是守望夜牧师所说的圣灵责备，心里竟然痛了一下，就像sam姐姐说的被榨了一下那样。。。我只知道我又伤害他多一次了。。。因为我告诉他之前其实我连爱的感觉是什么也不知道，现在更别说喜欢他。我也告诉他我们的未来我想不到。。。我们也没有机会再一起了。。。我想这时的他应该心里被深深的扎了很大刀吧！！心中在流血，眼睛在留泪。。。也许这只是我自己的想法，但是那时候他给我的感觉真的很伤。。。还有这次他的反应不一样。。。顿时我感受到他的改变，是我不懂得欣赏他的优点和他的改变，我真的相信现在的他和以前的他是不一样了。。。虽然没有完全的改变，但是至少他在很努力的改变自己，让自己变得更棒！更值得别人去欣赏和珍惜他的一切一切。。。

偷偷告诉你。。。我们之间曾经一起，分开，追求，拒绝。。。这是我唯一感觉到最心痛的。我也不知道为什么，不要问我为什么。。也许是觉得自己亏欠了他，这叫内疚吧。。突然觉得其实自己也没有什么资格去说别人的错，因为自己也是对感情同样那么不认真，伤害了他，更损了他们的友谊，也让身边的一位朋友心痛，试问我真的过得去自己的良心吗？很对不起。。。现在我明白自己的问题是哪里，也许不是真的明白，但是我想这是其中一个导致事情发生到那么严重的原因吧！

好咯！事情解决了！不知道我们以后会是怎样的呢??HiByeFriend?比普通的情侣更好朋友的朋友？？或者连HiByeFriend也不如的陌生人？？没有人知道。。。就看看明天见面后的我们吧。。。沉重的心情是该更沉重吗？还是已经可以放下，只是我自己不愿放下而已？？祷告吧！！这是我唯一可以安慰自己的藉口。。。也许要放下一个已经习惯背着的包袱是很难的，就让时间帮他扯下这包袱吧！别再累着他了，够了！！。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Raining = bad mood ??

Outside is raining....is it same like my mood now?? Today my classmate say my smile drop already....know what mean is it?? Actually she say me look like not happy,din smile at all,maybe normally i like to smile in front of people,then suddenly not smile at all,so will look like very strange...actually nothing la I think,because today was exam about History of Graphic Design,so my face look very serious only...haha...some more saturday is exam of Pengajian Malaysia,so will look more nervous....I think after exam I will become normal back...and hope that time my chest will wont feel so pain like now....my daddy is too stress already, so will make it become very pain....Everytime also like this ,when got exam ar,presentation ar,show ar....or what big function,my chest will become pain... look lik very 'lau ya' right???haha XD

Actually already normal for me la...some more just want to tell daddy something,than let him care me more only..hahaha

Hmmmm...very tired again...hope can tahan more long time only go to sleep ,cause saturday was exam,i still not yet do any prepair ,abit worry don't know will pass anot...very worry and scare...(piak)hmmm...cannot cry la...must become a designer look like Paul Rand so profesional and his name can keep as our history ....ENN!! ADD OIL!!!together add oil...dun so easy give up oh!!! ^o^

Tired....

Am i really tired....or just my self make my self tired....everyday do assignment until midnight,almost become china 国宝 already....really very scary >.<

Now I can feel my body become more week than before....now i will easy to get cold(will cold until stand there and 发抖),everyday like no energy,than my friend say my face always look like no blood ,my voice also become not nice anymore T.T And I thin already...maybe i will happy because thin already...but body so week,and not healthy,is it still can feel so happy for me??

And daddy almost every night scold me....because of din take care of my body,i know he just care about me,i feel so happy too,but almost everyday let scold,will feel so down for me....

So now the only i can hope is faster finish assignment,than only i got time to rest more,and please don't sick...cause my body so week now,if i suddenly sick already,i think the only i can do in that time is only sleep at bed every moment...I don't want like that!!!if take MC,i will miss many note or thing that lecturer say,so will more difficult to follow what lecturer teach in class....

hmmmm...just pray ba...i think god will help me over come all problem ^^Add oil lur ^^

Stole abit time from my timetable ^^

Wau!!already midnight 4.11am now....just finish research from internet(so geng!!),hope it is enough for ena ^^

Hmm...look like long long time din write already...before really too busy,some more don't know how to arrange my timetable very well,even now also(XD)...so always midnight only can got to rest,then the next morning need to wake up early go class(everyday just look like a zombi,dunno my brother how to tahan got a zombi every night sleep same room with him,XD)...really tired,but now think back,this life really let me feel very enrichment and hapi,because i have no extra time to do those boring and stupid thing like before,haha!!

now i just stole abit time from my time table to write sumthing inside
here(actually is using my sleep time to write =.=)....ok!talk the point la!today i was so hapi!!super hapi!!cause today class was cancel,than i continue my 'bed time story' until 1pm....so long did't sleep until so late liao,really let me charge full my battery...so today so late liao,still can play computer...wakaka!!sommore today i done liao 2 assignment,mayb for other people look lik nothing,"cheah!!2 only ma..i can done more la!!"NO NO NO!!2 assignment can let me got extra 6 to 7 hour sleep jor..thn i can use tis 6 to 7 hour to do another assignment already...it's a hapi thing for me....so now my mood abit bit high high,haha!!!

ok la!!high is high,also nid to sleep too what,tmr still got class at 9 oh!!!faster go to sleep lor...i still got 4 hour to sleep only...cause now already 4.30am...oh no!!so fast!!!k la...want to sleep jor..if not tmr become panda and sleep at class ,thn 'best'!!XD Good Night^^

Life change skill....

Life change skill,is it really worth?? Today my friend suddenly nudge me in MSN,then he just scold :"u sot aar??" Haha,very curious right??Curious why he suddenly scold me...Because i change my MSN personal message to:"I want to break my 2 day dun want sleep record"....

So mayb u still cannot understand why he scold me sot...haha

Tell u more detail..because he tell me 1 day din't sleep equal less 3 day life.You believe it??I tell you,it's really true!I fully believe it!So he say me sot,because i say want 2 day dun want sleep....

Then he tell me a sense,is it really worth me to use my life and change skill?I think everyone also got different answer,but i can tell u,i really feel it's not worth...for what???juz for 风光一时,then very fast die liao...I dun want this kind of life....very scarry...

So i hope everyone dun try it....it's really not worth....very fast die d leh...u want ar??Atleast sleep more thn 3 or 4 hour a day....So please...dun try!!!